A Barrel of Nelsons

Someone on a forum recently said she bookmarked my blog and couldn’t wait to read it. So I figured that I should probably post or something like that, eh? (Also, welcome any new readers… and old readers, regular readers, infrequent readers, readers who know me in real life, and readers who Googled something and ended [...]

I’ve got nothing much to say.
They called this morning and my car is totaled. Everybody says, it’s great that I wasn’t hurt and then proceed to lecture me on what I was doing wrong. As if I’m not hard enough on myself already. As if I don’t know what kind of tragedy this is, and [...]

I think I should start with some sort of apology for the punch-drunk-babbling-whackiness that was my last post. If it didn’t make sense, don’t worry, I’m not sure it was supposed too.
I’m up at 6:30 a.m. when I didn’t want to wake up until 7:00 a.m. and haven’t been sleeping well, so the thought (and [...]

No. Really.
Frustrated and Angry. Frustrated and Sad. Frustrated and Punching Something…
It’s about all sorts of stuff.
My job. Dinner. My weight. My sinuses. The people I work with. The people I deal with who all believe that deadlines don’t apply to them. And then want to whine at me when the newsletter is late.
Work has been [...]

Now don’t get me wrong. I love my job, it certainly is not The Job That Made Me Hate Stuff. I really think I have a niche at the church, and I do some stuff that I feel really good about. And the people are nice, and my boss is generous with praise.
But really…
Really… What [...]

Last weekend, we postponed the wedding… to no specific date…
Last weekend, Jeff did some stuff that could possibly be classified as being rather or more than rather jerk-like, but I’m big enough to say only that much.
Then I spent 4-days and 3-nights with Sara and Sam and Gavin and Pumpkin (that’s their cat).
There’s alot more [...]

I’m not sure if I mentioned it but we spent Thanksgiving in Michigan with Jeff’s mom’s branch of the family. It was fun and nice and I’ve finally met all of Jeff’s cousins on that side. But at the same time it was really hard, because that’s not where we were supposed to be this [...]

This is a post of links. The reason it is such is because I cannot bring myself to blog about Stephanie and Evelyn Bennett’s case. Not because I do not care. Not because my heart does not go out to the family. But because it brings up a lot of stuff inside me that hits [...]

Does anyone else have a problem with their heads versus their hearts? Or as I was thinking of it earlier, logic versus passion? Where you know that such and such a thing is logical, such and such a thing makes the most sense, is responsible, etc…
BUT…
But the opposite is what your heart aches for. The [...]

I have some real issues expressing myself sometimes. I naturally want to please people, to make friends, to not offend friends that I’ve made. However, I also have a very deep stubborn streak and a tendency towards passionate and somewhat ugly anger. I hold grudges, sometimes long after they should have rotted away. And I [...]